|Just a cake I made for sissy's bday 5(?) years ago!|
|Our windows look eerily similar to this...|
|Because we all know I'm this badass, right?|
Going through the gloomy, miserable day today, my body has been feeling more and more sore/tired from yesterday's workout. And I can't help it, but my mood is definitely matching the grey skies outside. I was on the phone with my mom yesterday (for a hot second when I was at work), and she told me she got a phone call from my Aunt Carolyn earlier. Well, let's just say my family is not Carolyn's favorite. I should have known that it was going to be bad news when my mom said she called. And it was. Turns out my grandma's health is degrading--her lips are turning blue and she is one of those people who doesn't go to the doctor unless it's really really serious. Her birthday is on the Fourth of July, so I'll be taking some time off work to head up there with my family and celebrate another year older with her.
But the circumstances are just so unfortunate. My mom mentioned visiting grandma for "what could be the last time" and although I held it together on the phone--I think I was in shock--I got rather emotional afterward. Good thing I saved my tears when I was at the gym--there's no use in crying over silly things like a hard workout when there are more important things to cry over. I've found myself thinking about it at the most random times and it's really hard not to get upset. My grandpa, her husband, died when I was in middle school, so it was a bit too early on in my life to really get emotional. My dad's parents passed away over the past few years, but we aren't really close with his side of the family, and I'd only met them a handful of times, so it wasn't a huge deal to me. But not only is my grandma the last of my grandparents that's living, but she's also the closest to me. I'm hoping and praying that it's not that bad. I don't want to tell myself otherwise.
|Summer 2007--Me & My Granny|