Also, I've had a very busy week:
|All the red is work, the blue is going-away stuff.|
Don't let that empty space fool you--that's errands/workouts.
That being said, I opted not to run the 4 the Wounded 5k last weekend--it just wasn't in the cards, but instead I spent time with friends and got in a pretty brutal Crossfit workout. You know it's a good day when you tell your workout partner, "You pick the poison," and then you beat him at his own game. 17:31 minutes later and I was done with 5 rounds of 25x 45lb push-presses and 50 double unders. Add about a 1:38 minutes and he finally caught up
I've had to come to the nasty realization this week that yes, this is my last week in Charlottesville. Throughout the past month or so, I've been in denial about this whole thing, trying to make things work out in my favor, but to no avail. Now, I'm finally very reluctantly
Yes, I do have a plan, and no, I do not intend to stay somewhere that I know I will not be happy. But that's where I'll be for the next year, and I feel like I'm just setting myself up to be stuck in limbo for that time. It's not all bad--I have some opportunities down there, but it doesn't feel right leaving right now. Moving has never been this hard before, and it's been taking a noticeable toll on me for a while now. Once down in VB, I have to start making a temporary life, but do I really want to go through the motions of settling in somewhere that I plan on leaving sooner rather than later?
I know that's no way to look at relocating. Those are just my concerns and my underlying questions. I promise, I'm REALLY giving it my all to at least appear to be positive these days! I've cried on very very few shoulders for that reason. Also because I refuse to appear vulnerable through this. Needless to say, this is a very tough weekend.
But enough of that! It's sunny outside, so I should try to reflect that, right?
Not to mention I had to say a very sad non-goodbye (we can't do those apparently) to my gym stepmom, Toni, on Thursday. Complete with more Starbucks. I've been a well-caffeinated and well-fed girl this week. I think I'm officially 4 pant sizes larger! Not.
Now I'm off for more last weekend festivities (if you can even call them that), before I pack my car tomorrow and make the drive to VB during the night. I think the only thing I'm looking forward to is joining this badass gym!