Well folks, I thought wrong. I tried being optimistic, then I was realistic, then pessimistic, and finally I was optimistic again. But I was put in my place. Fortunately--and I say that in a relative way--I was on my way home to my mom's when I received the news. This meant that I was able to spend time with my family and find solace among them. My insider friend texted me, "So I have some good news and some bad news." I immediately knew what that meant--that I didn't get the job. Correct. She went on to say she heard through the grapevine that they extended offers to 1 girl and 2 boys, and as of then (approximately 10am), 2 of the offers had been accepted. The good news was that more positions within the company are opening over the summer, so I should keep applying and stay positive. Eh, not quite what I call good news. I'm tired of playing the waiting game. I need a job NOW. I don't mean to be pushy or anything, but I'm just so frustrated and stressed--financially and emotionally.
I keep trying to think this over, but within the past couple of weeks I've been doubting my decision to stay in Charlottesville. Not because I don't want to, but I'm unsure if it was the right decision to make both financially and in terms of the job market. I only have one part time job currently and I have to pay for rent, utilities, groceries, gas(!!!), and somehow come up with the money for all of my competition-related expenses. The last thing I want to do is postpone my competition--again--and I'm sure as hell not going to. But sometimes it just gets really really stressful when all I can think about is how I have limited funds and I still have to go to the grocery store and picks up pounds and pounds of chicken.
I apologize for my down in the dumps attitude, but I really just need to let it all out and push on. These past few days, I've managed to put in applications for 3 more jobs--one is a pharmaceutical sales representative position (which my mom found) and I think it would be perfect for me. The second is a position within LivingSocial, which is coming to the Charlottesville area, and the third is a part-time intern position doing clerical work for an environmental consulting company. I keep trying to find more opportunities out there, but I haven't had much luck finding entry level positions, especially within my field.
Since putting in applications for the other 3 jobs, I feel a bit better, but now it's just a matter of playing the waiting game. And I'm a very impatient girl. I'm just so glad that I have such an amazing family and wonderful friends that know just what to say to cheer a girl up. And now I'm slightly impatient to get back to Charlottesville so I can at least find another part-time position. I have a few ideas in mind for the time-being, so I will see what happens.
P.S. I will have a cheerier post in the next day or so to counteract this downer post. Expect tales of puppies and the beach and sissy time :)