Down In the Dumps --> Rebuilding & Replanning

I haven't posted on here for a few days, and I promise I have a legitimate excuse. I've felt a little bit down these past few days, and no, it has nothing to do with my prep. You all know that I've been looking for jobs and I had my interview for a customer service representative at a local company a couple weeks ago. I thought it went pretty well--it was my first interview for a full-time job, and I thought I had responded to their questions adequately. My friend works for the company, and she kept giving me updates regarding them interviewing other candidates and taking the job listing down, etc. So I knew that they interviewed about 10 candidates for 3 open positions, and I kept thinking to myself that "It's a client services representative job--I have plenty of customer service experience so I'm sure that's good enough..."

Well folks, I thought wrong. I tried being optimistic, then I was realistic, then pessimistic, and finally I was optimistic again. But I was put in my place. Fortunately--and I say that in a relative way--I was on my way home to my mom's when I received the news. This meant that I was able to spend time with my family and find solace among them. My insider friend texted me, "So I have some good news and some bad news." I immediately knew what that meant--that I didn't get the job. Correct. She went on to say she heard through the grapevine that they extended offers to 1 girl and 2 boys, and as of then (approximately 10am), 2 of the offers had been accepted. The good news was that more positions within the company are opening over the summer, so I should keep applying and stay positive. Eh, not quite what I call good news. I'm tired of playing the waiting game. I need a job NOW. I don't mean to be pushy or anything, but I'm just so frustrated and stressed--financially and emotionally.

I keep trying to think this over, but within the past couple of weeks I've been doubting my decision to stay in Charlottesville. Not because I don't want to, but I'm unsure if it was the right decision to make both financially and in terms of the job market. I only have one part time job currently and I have to pay for rent, utilities, groceries, gas(!!!), and somehow come up with the money for all of my competition-related expenses. The last thing I want to do is postpone my competition--again--and I'm sure as hell not going to. But sometimes it just gets really really stressful when all I can think about is how I have limited funds and I still have to go to the grocery store and picks up pounds and pounds of chicken. 

I apologize for my down in the dumps attitude, but I really just need to let it all out and push on. These past few days, I've managed to put in applications for 3 more jobs--one is a pharmaceutical sales representative position (which my mom found) and I think it would be perfect for me. The second is a position within LivingSocial, which is coming to the Charlottesville area, and the third is a part-time intern position doing clerical work for an environmental consulting company. I keep trying to find more opportunities out there, but I haven't had much luck finding entry level positions, especially within my field. 

Since putting in applications for the other 3 jobs, I feel a bit better, but now it's just a matter of playing the waiting game. And I'm a very impatient girl. I'm just so glad that I have such an amazing family and wonderful friends that know just what to say to cheer a girl up. And now I'm slightly impatient to get back to Charlottesville so I can at least find another part-time position. I have a few ideas in mind for the time-being, so I will see what happens. 

P.S. I will have a cheerier post in the next day or so to counteract this downer post. Expect tales of puppies and the beach and sissy time :)