I'm just gonna come out and say I need to stop calling if it's going to be a good or bad day. It always goes against what I say. Not that today was a bad day, but it just didn't go as I planned and now I'm just frustrated. Which is possibly why I'm procrastinating on that darn paper
But enough of that, I won't let this get to me--with time I'll figure it out. On to other topics. Saturday morning I was on the treadmill at the gym, and it was like I had a flashback. I was back in high school, a senior, racing around my school's track. And I missed it. Back then (in 2007), I enjoyed running--track and cross country--everything about them was just a part of me. It was second nature. Yes, there were the days that I dreaded going to practice, and there were (rarely) the days that I
|My coach & I at one of the indoor meets|
|Oh how I miss XC meets!|
One day during the spring outdoor track season, a couple weeks after having completed the Shamrock 1/2 Marathon (my 1st one!), I just decided not to go back. I didn't tell my coach, I just stopped going. I sincerely wish I would have talked to my coach about my frustrations, though I don't think it would have helped. But it would have been more mature than just leaving my team high and dry, and for that I definitely owed them an apology. By keeping my frustrations to myself, I made running a chore instead of a passion. As the months between high school and college passed, I found myself running less and less. I tried one practice for Club Cross Country when I got to UVa, but it was too hard, especially since Virginia Beach is flat. I didn't go back.
Training for this competition has brought a lot of memories back to me, because I live for competition. I used to LOVE road races--5Ks, the 1/2 marathon, etc. Now? I would be ashamed of my time. I don't run 8-10 miles at a time and I don't have a team to pace with. However, I do want to get back into it. And luckily the figure competition has forced me to since running is the best form of cardio (in my opinion). I want running back in my life just as I want competition back in it. I can't go through a single workout without creating some sort of challenge for myself--which is why my cardio plans never go as planned. I try to see how far I can push myself to prove my strength (or endurance). Slowly but surely, I'm coming back!
My name is Liz Kurland, and you can catch me on the stage on June 12th! Until then, I will be running the roads of Charlottesville and the treadmills of Gold's. :)
P.S. My friend Liz (same name, different gal) is biking the US for MS this summer! She's AMAZING, so if you're into biking (or just like to see some beautiful VA scenery via her blog), check her out!!